Doublelift es el nuevo AD Carry in CLG Team

So since it's been officially announced now I guess the cats out of the bag :p I've been moved aside for the benefit of CLG apparently. I say apparently because I don't exactly agree with the choice that was made (no shit eh?) in kicking me for Doublelift. Now Doublelift has improved greatly and it's good for him that he joined CLG but still I don't see how he improves the team so much.. In fact I think leaving me on the team gave us more versatility as I could play Solo top champs as well that HotshotGG doesn't play. Like Riven, Renekton, Yorick, GP, Wukong, even Blitz if the chance arises :p He could take the Udyr, Galio, Skarner, etc.. The tankier champs and of course his well known Nidalee. So if HSGG wanted to play support so badly he could play it from time to time on champs like Janna, Taric, and Soraka and I could play the other supports when needed. So we could swap roles back and forth allowing us to not be banned out of top lane like we sometimes get ourselves into. In fact when CLG was strongest we used to do this. When we dominated through-out 90% of Season 1 me and HSGG swapped roles a lot and it worked great. jiji back to mid, HSGG n me swapping back n forth from top n bot, Chauster AD, and Saint jungler. This is all my opinion of course.

I am sure a lot of you are wondering.. How did it happen?

Hotshot was complaining about not wanting to solo top anymore for a couple weeks. Then one day he's like I AM GOING SUPPORT! So in a scrim we let him play support and I went top to fill his spot. We then did 9-10 scrims like this and my lane did well every time. There was no point in time where I got dominated but there were times where I dominated the other lane. I was trying to prove I could play this role and to my knowledge I was doing quite a fine and dandy job top lane. No one on the team complained about me not doing something, or doing something wrong. So I was like.. YEAAAHH! GJ Self /pats own back. Although bot lane was continuing to have their issues with Hotshot and Jiji down there now. So then last weekend out of the blue George asks me to talk to him on a skype call..

Here's what I was told.

Well it started out with George messaging me on skype saying he needed to talk to me about something. So I messaged him back and he asked if we could talk on skype. I was like uhh sure. So he then vaguely tells me that I will be the sub for CLG over a 20 min span of talking and I was still not sure on what was exactly happening. He said it was everyone's choice and everyone agreed that picking up Doublelift so he could play AD bot and have George support him would be the best for CLG's future. Having then Chauster go top to play the bruiser role now and jiji back to middle. He said he was sorry but it needed to happen and it wasn't just his choice it was the teams choice.

So I sat there for a moment thinking to myself (well what did I do wrong when I was playing solo top..? I must of done something terribly wrong for the team to just turn on me like that..) and I couldn't think of anything so I told George (Why wasn't I included in these conversations about me) he replies saying he most likely should of brought me in to talk to me about it but just didn't.. So I was like.. uhh okay can we talk to the team about it right now then? I want to hear everyone's opinion.

So I start talking to everyone in our group chat about what's happening and what they think about it. HSGG, jiji, and Chauster were all in agreed in what was happening while Saint knew about it but wasn't fully on board for the choice. They start telling me how they don't think I could play solo top and I am the reason for our weak bottom lane. When in reality jiji has been doing a lot of stupid plays bot lane. So I reply "Why didn't you guys tell me I was doing something wrong in the bottom lane then.. That's how we get better as a team by communicating this to people. You guys didn't say anything. When we scrim I am never the one being blamed for anything ever and all of a sudden I am the reason we're losing..?" Chauster is the only one talking to me at this point because HSGG, and jiji aren't saying anything and Saints on vacation or something so he was busy. Chauster goes on to tell me that he thinks I am not a good support and that I needed to be practicing my Solo Queue supports more. I tell him I was duo queueing with jiji a lot and we were practicing our duo lanes a lot in the last few weeks and that's the truth.. We were practicing a lot and trying stuff out. He says I am lying because he checks my profile to see that I have like 10% support games player total or something. I say yes, I wasn't playing support at the start of Season 2 because I was trying to get my elo up because support 1200-1600 players gets you no where. It's a totally different game at 1900+ so I was grinding my way up there, and now that I am in this bracket I do play support. He disregards that and claims that I am not taking my role seriously enough.

[11/20/2011 9:45:39 PM] chauster: you had less than 10% of solo q games as support
[11/20/2011 9:45:42 PM] chauster: less than 10%
[11/20/2011 9:45:49 PM] chauster: and you told me you played them you just didnt get the chance
[11/20/2011 9:45:52 PM] Cody Siggy: i told u why
[11/20/2011 9:45:55 PM] chauster: thats obviously a lie

I say no one was really taking anything seriously in the last month after we got back from NYC. No ones been playing super serious or try harding a lot. Hotshot jumping around roles, jiji and I duo queueing (doing what we're supposed too but solo queue isn't a great way to practice duo lane anyways imo because people in solo queue are pardon my french fucking retarded and anyone can stomp those lanes) so we were kinda messing around having fun. Saint playing junglers like he's supposed too (GJ Saint!) and then I call Chauster out for always duo queueing with Missy all day and telling him (You're not taking it seriously either by duo queueing with her all day) He then tells me he is, and tells me (Truthfully, Missy's a better support than you are, she's more offensive).. I kinda burst out laughing at this (no offense Missy) because stomping kids in Solo queue when you're as good as you are Chauster will make anyone look and feel better when playing with them. Tournament level play at live events is a COMPLETELY different game and you of all people should know this. Solo queue has truly nothing to do with competitive play other than learning how to be comfortable with a champion. Needless to say I was getting pretty pissed off.

So I ask them.. "If I was THAT bad why did none of you tell me? Why did no one let me know that I needed to improve or wasn't taking it seriously enough?" He reply because we're your friends and no one had the balls to tell you. At this point I am like "Are you guys fucking serious?"

[11/20/2011 10:18:55 PM] chauster: cody you are my friend
[11/20/2011 10:18:59 PM] chauster: we are a team
[11/20/2011 10:19:04 PM] chauster: but HONESTLY
[11/20/2011 10:19:08 PM] chauster: thats just how i feel

News flash. If we were friends you'd let me know, or try a lot harder to make sure I am know that I am doing something wrong. If we were friends you'd go out of your way to help me to learn my role better and maybe duo queue with me instead of you know who. If we were friends this decision would of been hard for you guys to make, yet you didn't even contact me about it, you didn't let me know I was doing anything wrong, and you didn't EVEN GIVE ME THE CHANCE TO PLAY THE ROLE OF SOLO TOP. You'd rather assume I can't do it and toss me to the side and pick up a player in my place. I mean really. After all the shit we've been through as a team, you couldn't even extend the courtesy of at least letting me try out the role of solo top, or even letting me know (as so called friends) that I needed to step up my game because I wasn't doing enough. None of that was told to me. Nothing was given to me in that regard. For so called friends who are supposed to support me.. You did a fucking terrible job.

One of the reasons I was so pissed off is because after all that year + long work together we FINALLY were getting finical support and I had planned the next while of my future out based on the contract I signed. One week later I get the boot and no more contract and someone who did nothing for the team and had to sacrifice nothing for it gets all my spoils which really just urked me in a the worst kind of way. Pour my heart and soul into a team to get back stabbed just as the going gets good. Again.. For so called friends..

So then we start talking about my play on our road trip where Chauster complimented me on my good play. Chaox said I was lacking a bit from playing with him on WCG so I was like "f this shit, srs mode"

[11/20/2011 9:52:13 PM] Cody Siggy: when chaox said that i took my role my serious
[11/20/2011 9:52:19 PM] Cody Siggy: and that was before our on the road trip
[11/20/2011 9:52:27 PM] Cody Siggy: and u even said i was better
[11/20/2011 9:52:33 PM] Cody Siggy: you complimented me onm doing better
[11/20/2011 9:52:41 PM] chauster: i was giving you encouragement
[11/20/2011 9:52:42 PM] chauster: you did get a little better
[11/20/2011 9:52:47 PM] chauster: but then it never got better
[11/20/2011 9:52:51 PM] chauster: after that

So let's look at this. When I you said good things about me and supported me in the role I played I did better.. At IEM China I think I played really good actually. I even told you guys how great it felt to play that good and I felt like I did a lot as support through-out those games.. HOW STRANGE!? A team that supports one another does better and improves. You want to know why I completely stopped playing Alistar? I fucking HATE that champion because the amount of pressure that comes with it from CLG. In solo queue I'll go dominate with him, always have. Rarely miss a combo and generally f shit up with him. I play him for CLG and that single time I don't do a perfect combo all I hear is (ugh, elementz) all these sighs, these doubts, people calling me out. That doesn't boost my confidence to play that champion. That doesn't make me want to improve. That pushes me away from a role I should be practicing. Alistar is super good, but I do NOT want to play him ever for CLG ever again because it puts me in a bad mood from the get go because I know if I make a single mistake they will chew me out for it. I guess I am an emotional guy when it comes to that stuff because I take it to heart. When the people I respect shit talk me, it brings me down fast. I can take all the solo queue bullshit, and the random tier list haters, but what I couldn't take was being doubted and not respected by my own team mates. That's truly one of the worst feelings.

I all knew they didn't respect me and what I did for the team. They never built me up, they never gave praise when something was done right. I come from a background of competitive sports (Lacrosse and Soccer) and on those teams when you screw up, people don't blame you. People don't get down on you. They try and build you back up as fast as possible because guess what? The person who screwed up already knows that they messed up. They messed up in front of an audience and you want to put them down even more? God no. Even the players on the team I didn't like as people I still gave them morale boosts because that's how you succeed as a team. A true team supports one another to the end no matter what. As you guys see from our scrims, CLG likes to play the blame game as soon as shit turns south for a moment and we downward spiral into a loss because people would rather argue then play and finish the game. How do you keep a positive go getter attitude when this is the environment you play in?

That brings me to my next point.. REGIBRO! Now Reginald and I have our had differences but we've always been friends. When I played with Reginald I had a fire under my belly. I had the desire to be the best, crush everyone, and let no one stand in my way. For the RTTT (Razor Twisted Treeline Tournament) I played amazingly. I did what was needed, I practiced 3v3 day in and day out and knew exactly what time everything spawned at, who to ban EVERYTHING I knew on that map. I was mentally and physically ready to win and we did. We beat every team, including CLG for the win. It felt awesome. We then went on as AoN to smash a lot of teams and be the leaders of the competitive scene. Then Season 1 came out and Regi started playing a lot less. Started motivating a lot less and pretty much lost interest in LoL for a while. This was when I jumped ships to CLG because my leader was gone. At that point in the game I was considered and considered my self one of the top 5 players in the game if not higher. I was so confident in every choice I made and it reflected on my game play as well as I smashed literally everyone.

Alright now that, that little detour is over let's get back to the conversation at hand!

I mean if it was a scheduling thing we ironed that out like 2 weeks ago. I was able to scrim and I would schedule my real life around scrim times which I did. I was so happy that CLG was finally getting our shit together, scrimming a lot, and doing our best. It was awesome, and I was having fun and doing better overall I believe in just that short amount of time. So I don't think I got booted for not showing up anymore because I was making the time for CLG once again.

So after I go through all the (wtf why me! wahh, how could you guys do this to me!) stuff I say. "How come jiji gets literally 5 months of messing up tournaments for us and he gets babied, told it's okay, and gets how many chances to improve? and I don't get a single notice or a single chance to show you guys I have what it takes?" They simply reply we think jiji has the potential to get better still and you've hit you max potential already with no room for improvement. This pretty much goes right back to what I just. How do I get pumped up and excited about playing and supporting a bunch of guys who don't believe in me and don't support me at all? You don't. You can try but the results won't be nearly as good. They put all this faith in jiji (don't worry jiji I think you can come back and dominate again too) but don't put equal faith in me to come back and show I am worthy of being a top tier player. For the last few months I've had this thought in the back of my head that they never respected me and this just proves it. So that basically sums up why I got subbed and the conversation between CLG and I.

So then something funny happened which I noticed after all this. Chauster was supposed to be top lane bruiser because I was told it was a (super important role and he would have to cover it!) but now he's been moved to support..? When he's a much better AD. So now HSGG has returned to the top lane and isn't supporting anymore because the team decided too many role swaps was a bad idea. Jiji is back playing AP mid and Saint is in the jungle.

Chauster AD > Doubelift imo and Chauster told me I am a way better support than he is so wouldn't the logical thing just have jiji go back middle and start doing good on AP's again the team would be 100% A-Okay because tournament results showed me and Chauster didn't lose our bot lanes a lot if ever. We actually usually won our lanes for the most part. I mean I am no genius but it seems like CLG's problems are jiji not playing good enough at the tournament level still, bad team building skills, and no leader. Same issues we've been having since our road trip. Did you guys think maybe jiji is playing bad in tournaments due to everyone bashing him all the time too? Did you guys think maybe if you changed your shitty attitudes to support one another we would be back on top dominating like we used too? Even if I am the weakest link on the team in terms of player skill if you guys just stopped being such assholes when we played we would of came together as a TEAM as this is a TEAM game afterall and started playing great together again.

So CLG - If you think kicking me will improve the chances of you guys as a team then all the power to you. I hope you guys succeed and go on to win more tournaments then we ever did together. You guys have to realize that the core problem of the team is all the ego's, and the negative attitudes that you bring with you into scrims and tournament play which is our ultimate demise. No one wants to play and do well together if you're all barking at each other. That's not how you create a good team environment. You guys need to choose a leader, and not disagree with what they say. That's why Reginald is such a great leader because even if he makes the wrong call you follow him into battle anyways because if you all do it your chances of succeeding will be better than if 2-3 of you hesitate to act. That's something CLG has always struggled with and will continue to struggle with unless they as a team change their attitudes.

I mean look at why we won MLG and IEM Cologne.. We dropped a player, picked up someone else, and played a team. We came in as underdogs with desire to win and we had Saint leading us. No one touched us at all in those two tournaments because everyone supported each other and there was no arguing. The only person getting upset was Hotshot but that's understandable because it's his business and he needs CLG to do good for him to continue doing what he loves. When CLG dropped the bullshit we were unstoppable and that's the truth. Too many ego's and too many split choices ruined us. If you all want to argue about who's right you need realize you're all wrong because 3 different people trying to lead a team doesn't work and only causes problems.

So wow that was a lot of typing haha. I guess you're wondering WHAT DOES ELEMENTZ FUTURE HOLD?

Well I don't plan to quit playing competitively just yet, I may try and find another team or just sit sub and help the CLG guys get their shit together I am not sure what yet.

I could go into competitive LoL shout casting which I would love to do so that's a possibility and the great feedback I got at IEM China I think I might be pretty good at it too :p

No I won't abandon my website or my community involvement. I will continue to pump out content for you guys and support the LoL community that I love.

No I didn't get a job at Riot but I may try and find work else where doing something eSports or gaming related.

This is just a big bump in the long road of life for me. I am not going to get down and stop trying to improve myself just because some people tried to get me down :p I will continue forward guys. Don't worry. I got big plans for RoG so just wait for what the future holds and we can build a great gaming community together.